the fast changing world.
everyone seems to be evolving. and i was left on my own old self. i have to admit that at this point in my life i am afraid to risks. i am too much careful. at what i said or do or even just a mere thought.
i am not into new things anymore. things that are exciting for me before have no impact at all. i just want to doze off and sleep the whole day thinking that i was totally exhausted and drained and needing much rest.
some people are always into action. they just love that. and it is really fascinating to watch them. they just have a big pool of energy and enthusiasm. to be with the world. to share what they have. and i am glad they do. well i guess to balance that i am here.. right? gee.
i love to remember the times when i was this young man full of energy and idealism. that things should be like this. that there should be no war and hate and hunger. where everybody must love each other. but that is not the case. as you get older you realize that people do not live according to your ideals. that beyond the things we envisioned how the world should look like perfectly lives the humans with different background and visions in life. that we all suffer differently in some degrees. that we cannot focus on resolving one after another issues because there are a lot of things to solve. a lot of questions to be answered.
only after we experience different things can we understand and make a better judgment. and we still have/make different judgment. i guess we only need to make judgment that is best for us and for the rest of the world. what i am saying now?
